For the last several years, my work has been about helping people support their businesses or personal endeavors. And by support I mean a website. A supporting website. That supports. Supports what? The inside of a web browser? Keeping the scroll bar from falling over?
Let's be honest.
A website alone never saved anyone's business or made a dream come true. Many websites have made my dream of being an independent come true, but after a year of boasting across tables that I've been living on my skills and knowhow for the last x number of years, I begin to feel empty.
Let's be honest.
The only times that my skills really ever helped a client were the times when the client had a damn good idea of what they wanted and what a website's place was in their overall plan. I merely offered my limited expertise and delivered when and what I said I would.
I am by default restless. And my desire for some semblance of real accomplishment has breached my fear of actually doing something. The idea of a longterm project chasing a documentary about a subject that seems much too large and serious for this silly boy...this idea is driving me.
I am looking at words like war, freedom, genocide, and anesthetic-free surgery. I am going to sit across from a man who saw and did these things. And I am going to ask him about it. How do I face that after years of just bullying pixels and gentrifying html elements?
I don't know, but that's how it goes.
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ReplyDeleteAhh yes, horrorus vacuous.
ReplyDeleteThat restless doubting gnaw, that eats away at our transient satisfactions,
despite the clear superiority, the leaps, and the rise from ashes.
Serious talk is never cheap, but there is a sliding scale.
Loaded werds carry their own baggage for us, and to us;
Just as we must carry our skills as far as it takes.
us.
We diminish our lived past at the expense of each and every hour we billed as real.
And we telegraph a similar fate to our invented future self-same as it everwuz.
But let's be on it, growth is natural, even expected.
Widening our aperatures, increasing our depth, focusing on something more real and authentic…these are what make a monk key into the bigger picture.
But must we make musty in our haste for the higher taste?
I say nay-nay!
Resist this facile brooding denigration of the receding soul!
Embrace this race you've run; Risk the smirking snarks of the assassin's gaze!
At least acknowledge the integrity of the arrow's flight!
And let's be on it too: Screen to Screen to Screen.*
It's all about, and ultimately on it too, though your content encompasses
ever more promise of contentment, and Truth. (beware!){"Be-ware?"}
There is no "just."
Talking across tables, just as talking across continents,
is the bully bully skill of 'gentlemen,' right and honorable.
And since when have you failed to espress yoself?
*This obviously calls for some deconstruction you cry? Of Course!
ReplyDeleteFirst, let's drop the 'n,' in favor of the more plural: 'scree.'
Then examine it's etymological and googalogical arc, yes?
Scree (skrē) noun : an accumulation of loose stones or rocky debris lying on a slope or at the base of a hill or cliff : talus <akin to SoCal "Tell Us!"
Etymology: back-form. <earlier screethes <Scots & northern English dial., of Scandinavian origin; akin to Old Norse skritha landslide, from skrītha to slide, to creep; akin to Ger schreiten, to step; to Old High German scrītan to go, <akin to Lithuanian skriesti to turn< IE base *(s)ker-, to turn, bend.
Creating a Scree Plot
Overview
A Scree Plot is a simple line segment plot that shows the fraction of total variance in the data as explained or represented by each PC. The PCs are ordered, and by definition are therefore assigned a number label, by decreasing order of contribution to total variance. The PC with the largest fraction contribution is labeled with the label name from the preferences file. Such a plot when read left-to-right across the abscissa can often show a clear separation in fraction of total variance where the 'most important' components cease and the 'least important' components begin. The point of separation is often called the 'elbow'. (In the literature, the plot is called a 'Scree' Plot because it often looks like a 'scree' slope, where rocks have fallen down and accumulated on the side of a mountain.)
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